Walking with my Goddess
Ramblings on The Feminine Divine...
Friday, 15 May 2026
Returning to Ritual
Monday, 29 September 2025
A Balancing Act
The wheel turns once more, and with the harvest, comes the falling temperatures and leaves, the end of September is upon us, and the winter months beckon. This time of harvest is known by many names; Autumn Equinox, or the increasingly unpopular term of Mabon, Albon Elfod in the Druid Path, Harvest Home or In Gathering in traditional folklore and Michaelmas in the old church calendar. In fact today, the 29th September is St Michaels Day or Michaelmas.
In fact a lovely little bit of folklore tells us that Michaelmas is when St Michael kicked the devil out of heaven and he landed somewhat unceremoniously on a blackberry bush. With not just his dignity smarting, every year he remembers and kicks, spits or even piddles on those luscious purply-black fruits, so legend tells us not to pick them after this day. I had a look at mine belatedly today, to see if there were anymore left to go with my apples, but nope, the devil has definitely got to them, and however arty the late afternoon light makes them look, there's no way I'm eating them!
Whatever term sits best with you, the significance of the season remain pretty much the same; harvest, a time of equal light and balance before the onset of winter and the fading of the light. So this biannual celestial balance of light and dark, of day and night brings harmony to us, or so we hope. Sometimes however, I suspect that it serves to show us what is not quite totally in balance, sometimes the season also serves to show us what is a bit wobbly, askew, completely off kilter or plain upside down, not just in our own lives, but in the world around us.
The sharp nip in the air and the dew on this spider's web this morning, so precariously and masterfully created between a garden chair and himself's Lambretta, could have been woven by Arachnae herself. In a moment of reflection, well wrapped up on the patio, along with a lazy morning cuppa, in my own personal bid for balance and sanity, it occurred to me to be a perfect symbol of the delicate state of everything around us right now, brave, beautiful and fragile beyond measure. This multi stranded and complex equilibrium of the world right now, which seems so shaky, unbalanced and uncertain, and try as we might, we can't seem to set it right, let alone balance or stabilise however hard we try, however loud we shout and protest, or hard we manifest or cast our quiet everyday magic. But the world somehow keeps spinning it's magic, and so must we, in whatever way we can.
Friday, 22 August 2025
The River Of Stars
It's been a busy month here, so writing time has been spent on other projects, but as I've just come back in from Mum and Dad's house, I've been gazing at the stars, and I thought I'd share this with you all, that I wrote for Camp last month. For context, it was written to share after an evening star gazing, which of course the clouds hid, but I wanted to create a myth that my distant ancestors sat atop a hill one starry night many millennia ago may have told each other about the constellation Cassiopeia, long before they'd heard of a Greek myth. You can Find the constellation in the East of the summer sky here in the Northern hemisphere, and it looks like giant W.
I hope you enjoy it...
Constellation of Cassiopeia, courtesy of https://star-name-registry.com
The River Of Stars
Let your minds take you to another campfire, not far from
here, a little higher up on the ridge to the North, there too, the fire is
roaring, and the tribe has gathered, much like it has here. There too, there is
companionship, warmth and safety, so let yourself be transported back to
another place in time, several millennia since.
Stelli feels the chill of the night tingling on her nose and
cheeks, and she pulls her furs more tightly around her, the bone toggle has
fallen off, but she has yet to tell her mother who is quietly feeding her
youngest sister under her own furs. She inches a little closer to the fire.
The great sun set low in the sky earlier tonight and
tomorrow he will rise a little later, for the cold months draw near, and the
winter approaches. She snuggles into her Grandmother Edda, who despite her tiny
birdlike frame, radiates a warmth that Stelli has been drawn to, for all of her
11 summers. The old woman smiles and manoeuvres her into her great fur cloak
whilst still managing to work on the carving she has carefully been etching on
a long animal tooth with a small flint. Her old, gnarled fingers slower now
than they used to be, but still working in precise, hypnotic movement scoring
lines and patterns.
Round the fire the menfolk of the tribe, her father, her
uncles, brothers and cousins are laughing and congratulating themselves on the
end of another season of hunting in the furthest reaches of the land. They have
long since been settled here on the high ridge that they call home, but the
nomadic spirit from over a lifetime ago still pulses through their veins and
each summer, the call of adventure sends them to follow the herds who still
take their seasonal migrations to the faraway lands towards the other sea.
The night is crisp and clear, and the skies are full of
stars that shine brightly and Stelli traces patterns with her fingers, Edda
smiles as she watches her.
“You can see the shapes and places of the stars child?” she
asks quietly.
Proudly Stelli answers her, “Yes, I can. I can see the great
bear that Uncle Ruud showed me”
On hearing his name Ruud joins the conversation, and
everyone listens, as they always do, for he is their greatest hunter and
warrior.
“The great bear” he roars and winks at Stelli, “Artur, we
call him. My ancestral fathers hunted that bear and put him in the sky to
remind us of our old ways!” and the men
folk roar in appreciation at the sharing of the ancient memories of their
tribe.
Stelli points out a jagged line of stars that traverse the
night sky “and what of those ones?” she asks her Grandmother, who knows all
that there is to know.
Her Uncle’s son Haan answers first “That’s the great adder,
my Grandfather told me about him when I was a boy, a giant silent serpent that
slithers down from the heavens when the winter nights come, his eyes are like
flames and that is the last thing you see before his fangs dig into your flesh
with their deadly poison!”
Some of the younger children look scared and draw closer to
their mothers, and Stelli can see that her little brother Torba’s lip is
trembling.
Ruud laughs and ruffles Haan’s hair, “No son, that is the
where the heavens open when the Gods are angry, like a great split in the sky,
when the sky rumbles and the heavens are filled with flashes of fire. It
reminds us to serve our Gods well”
This isn’t helping Torba much and his lip continues to
quiver.
Ruud however is kinder than his son, and seeing Torba’s face
and those of the smaller members of the tribe who look worried, he continues:
“But, we serve our Gods well and we bring them offerings,
and they are not angry with us! Look at all of these hides and furs, and the
winter supplies of meat that we have gathered! We still hunt the Elk, the Deer
and the wild boar and we feel their hearts beating and their blood pulsing in
time with our own throughout the wild hunt. We still make offerings for their
sacrifice to honour the Gods, and they are not angry” and even Torba smiles a
little.
“These stars in the sky, are pathways to home” he carries on
“They were placed there by the Gods for our ancestors, back in the old days
when our fathers walked from land to land, long, long ago, before the sea rose
and drowned the pathways of Doggerland and the land split into two. These stars
guided them home, from the Land where the sun sets, to where it rises, so that
we could journey back to each other, and we use them still” There is much nodding and agreement amongst
the tribesmen.
“What do you see Stelli?” Asks her Grandmother, Her voice is quiet but her presence as Elder
and Keeper of the Stones means that she too is listened to and revered. The
whole tribe wait for Stelli to reply.
“Well, erm ” Stelli’s cheeks flame as she mutters, but she
ignores the faces that Haan is pulling
and she continues “I see, well, I
see a meandering river, like the one that weaves through the valley, down
there” as she points to the darkness at the bottom of the hill towards where
the muddy brown river flows “but it is reflected in the skies and marked out
by stars”
Edda’s face breaks into a wide smile
“You are right, my granddaughter, you are right”
Edda looks around the tribe, and gently unwrapping Stelli
from her cloak, she stands up as tall as she can be for such a small woman and
looks up into the night sky.
“That is indeed the river of stars, t rises with the sun and
it weaves its way through the valleys of the heavens, all the way over to where
the sun sets in the faraway places of the land.
And do you know why it is there?”
Some of the older members of the tribe nod, but the younger
ones, shake their heads open mouthed.
“It is the river of stars and the river of life” she continues “when we
walked the land when I was a girl, even younger than Stelli is now, it showed
us the way back to our ancestors, and as Ruud says, it kept us safe on our
journey home, and yes there were snakes Haan and your grandfather wrestled them
and he fought off bears, to keep us all
safe” Haan smiles, relieved that he doesn’t look so stupid after all.
“But it is also the river of our ancestors, so that wherever
we journeyed we could find our way back to them, and wherever we buried them,
they could always find their way home to us, back to the rites that we speak
and sing, when we honour them, and our dances
that lead them upwards to the stars, where we all go when we pass
through the veil, and their spirits journey ahead through the star river to the
great unknown.”
Stelli feels the hairs on the back of her neck prickling as
Edda speaks and as she rejoins her granddaughter and wraps her back up in her
furs, she whispers just to her:
“It is no wonder that
you know these things my child, you were birthed on a starry night like this, I
helped you from your Mother’s body, and it was I, that named you Stelli, in
honour of the stars that shone so brightly above us, then, and now”
Stelli smiles with pride and Edda hands her the tooth she
has been carving all afternoon and night saying “here child you need a new
toggle for your furs”
And when Stelli looks at the carving, in the flickering
light of the fire, she can see as well as feel, the curved groove of the
celestial river marked along the whole length of the tooth, as well as a handful of stars marking
out its journey through the night sky,
and she knows in that instant that her Grandmother is full of the magic and
wisdom of the heavens, and she, Stelli has inherited this deep star magic too.
Wednesday, 30 July 2025
The Maidstone Witch Trials
Monday, 21 July 2025
A Weekend In The Woods
In the Northern Hemisphere camping season is upon us, and before the children broke up for school, we snuck in a cheeky camp here in our little South East corner of the UK - Camp Cantiaci, named for one of the original tribes of Kent, the tribe which gave us our county name too. So leaving aside the eternal cry of what did the Romans ever do for us, they gave us a name for a bloody good camp!
"I am Andraste.
Maybe you know of me, but for many, my name has been lost in
the mists of time. Let your hearts and minds cast themselves back to ancient
memories and feel the stirrings of remembrance. Connect to the land beneath you
and feel me in the beat of your heart.
I am Goddess of this land, as far up as the Land of the East Angles and also here in this land of the Cantiaci, you hear my name in the whispers of the old places now – Anderida Forest and Andreds Weald, I was, and still am Goddess of this sacred land.
I am a warrior Goddess, my name Andraste means she who has
not fallen, she who is invincible, and yes, I am the one who stands before you
as you enter the battlefield. Many years since, my name was fervently whispered
in prayers of protection and for courage or howled in wild invocations as
warriors braced themselves for battle, and I was, and I still am a Goddess of
victory, war, and sovereignty. My followers summon me to them, hair flowing,
battle ready and spear, in hand – a symbol of my power and strength in battle
and my ability to protect my people and their lands.
When my High priestess Boudica fought the invaders of our
land nigh on two millennia ago, she called to me on the eve of battle “I thank
you, Andraste, and call upon you as woman speaking to woman.... I beg you for
victory and preservation of liberty” and I fought with her, for I am protector
of my land and people. It was not I that
failed her, but the warriors who had lost their belief in the old ways, and
turned tail and ran in fear at the might of those Roman Bastards. Spit.
I am not merely a
bloodthirsty war monger; I fight for liberty and sovereignty. I am a true
warrior, protector of the weak, the vulnerable and those who have no voice, but
underestimate me at your own risk, for I will fight tooth and nail for what is
right, and I will tear you limb from limb and my ravens will find rich pickings
in the wake I leave at every battlefield.
Aside from the battlefield, I am Goddess of rebirth and
renewal of the land, and the sacred wheel of the year as it turns. I am celebrated
in deep stillness of the winter at the Solstice, as the old year fades, with great festivals and feasts held in my
honour, in the deep and sacred groves of our Island, and if it pleases me, I
bestow blessings, fortune and protection on my tribes for the coming year, and bring abundance and fertility in the coming
greening months of spring. I am protector of the land, and all the creatures
that nestle is its glades and forests. My sacred animal is the hare, old frisky
legs or run-the-winds as we knew them, for they are swift, agile and cunning -
all attributes I possess to outrun, outwit and out manoeuvre those who pit
their wits against me.
Monday, 23 June 2025
Solstice Season
I know they say time goes quicker as you get older, but the sabbats have a cheeky habit of creeping up on me, and this Summer Solstice was no different. This year, the longest day involved clearing out a shed in that ridiculous heat and going to the tip, followed by a well earned nap! As I journey along my path, I tend to feel the season, rather than focusing on just one day, so it was the following day, which was a whole half a second shorter, when I ventured out to mark the turn of the wheel.
An early start was required, well when the day was still in single figures, which is a shock to my Sunday morning system, and I headed off to spend some time with the lovely Ladies of Kent Goddess Group at the beautiful setting of Walmer Castle Gardens, a place I'd driven past several times, but never actually visited. In the Avallonian tradition, Summer Solstice or Litha as some people call it, is connected to the element of water, which I've always found a surprise, but over the years, I learned to go with the flow, every pun intended!
After much delighted hugging, we explored the grounds, and found the cool peace of the Pavilion overlooking a tranquil pool, where we held a short and heartfelt water ritual, which was sacred, life affirming, warm and funny all at the same time. The pool before us was seemingly still and serene in the heat, until we looked closer and saw countless damsel flies and dragonflies making merry and laying their eggs on the lily pads there.
I've always loved dragonflies, I have them all over the house, in jewellery, art, mugs, you name it and their magical gossamer wings and iridescent hues have always held a huge significance for me, their message of change, adaption, transformation and spiritual enlightenment are always welcome, and today was no exception. It was the perfect afternoon with the most beautiful company, tranquil and nourishing, full of laughter and chatter in equal measure.
Later on, after returning home, it was time to head out with himself, this time to the Lost Village of Dode for some more Solstice celebrations - this time the Return and Rebirth of the Dode Dragon. For those of you who have never heard of Dode, in a very small nutshell, it was an old village that was wiped out by the black death, the church lay empty, it was deconsecrated and fell into disrepair, until about 30 years ago when the current owner bought it and restored it.
Today it's a beautiful venue for Weddings and Handfastings, and also has a barrow for a final resting place for ashes, which I have also been privileged to visit. The whole site has beautiful magical and somnolent qualities about it, and yesterday it was the setting for the Litha Celebrations that welcomed back a banner of the Dode Dragon, 25 years after it had been cast aside, following an acrimonious debate with a local Archdeacon. Maybe not your normal Midsummer back drop.
It was a fabulous evening, a picnic in the sun, Morris dancing (we watched as opposed to taking part you'll be relieved to know), some amazing Japanese Drumming from Kensei Taiko which reverberated through the valley so that we could feel the very pulse of it, before the Dragon was restored to it's rightful home, in a procession of fire as the sun slipped away behind the hills for the night.
It was probably one of the most unusual and random days of Solstice Celebration that I've ever experienced, a day of opposites: water and fire, a castle and a church, but also a day of dragonflies and dragons, some of my favourite things, and it was certainly one of the most memorable.
Have A Blessed Week x x
Saturday, 7 September 2024
Rowan Rambles
Some of you may have seen my little video last week, well it carried on as a bit of a theme, as these things tend to do so this blog is brought to you, drumroll please, courtesy of... Sorbus Aucuparia - the humble Rowan.
Did you know that we use Latin names as standard for all plants, because in the 18th century, a systemised method was developed by Swedish Naturalist Carl Linnaeus? One reason being that as a so called 'dead' language, the meaning of the Latin words wouldn't alter and it was long been seen as universally acknowledged scientific language along with Greek? Well we all know now!
So, what's in a name? If you use google translate, Sorbus Aucuparia roughly translates 'a sip of bird watching', which at first google may seem a bit odd. Sorbus can also means 'service tree' and aucuparia pertains to birds - derived from 'avis' and 'capere' - catching. This has been accredited to the fact that traditionally, the berries may have been used to trap or catch wild fowl in hunting. Hmm, we'll see about that.
The Rowan is a tree of many, many names; it is also known as the Mountain Ash and more poetically The Lady of The Mountains due to it's ability to thrive in wilder more liminal locations, and it has been referred to as the quickbeam, wicken and witchwood, as well as being called fid na ndruad in old Irish or Celtic language which translates to the Wizard's Tree. It is often associated with Faeries, perhaps on account of its beautiful creamy-white, five petalled flowers, a similarity shared with those of the also fae friendly Elder and Hawthorn, and there were certainly lots of them around the famous Fairy Pools on the Isle of Skye when we visited a few years ago.
The Rowan is also important in Norse Mythology, legend has it that when the God Thor was swept into a fast flowing river towards the underworld, Rowan dipped her branches and rescued him, allowing him to pull himself to the safety of the banks and also as opposed to being crafted from a spare rib, in Norse creation folklore, the first woman was made from the wood of the Rowan and the first man was made from that of the Ash Tree.
My favourite legend or myth though, is the one I alluded to, but which eluded me in my little video, and that is of the Greek Goddess and bearer of the chalice of eternal youth, Hebe. Her magical chalice bore the Ambrosia or Nectar to the Gods and Goddesses of Olympus. It was stolen from her by demons, and the Gods sent an Eagle to help her recover it. A battle of epic proportions ensued, and although the eagle triumphed and restored the chalice to Hebe, many of their feathers and droplets of blood fell to earth, whereupon the Rowan Trees sprang up with berries of blood red and leaves shaped like eagle feathers.
Hmm, throwback to a 'sip of birdwatching', rambling rowan thoughts currently include sipping a cup, maybe as in a cup or chalice of eternal youth? Service tree, could that be serving the Gods? As for aucuparia and 'avis' and 'capere', could that also be catching, how about the Eagle recapturing the chalice? Each to their own interpretation, but I think I know where my thoughts and inclinations have rambled off to!
Rowan is renowned for it's protective qualities, it is said to protect people from witchcraft, enchantment and even lightning. Planting one in your garden was said to make for a happy and safe home, my parents house, which was my Nan's house before that, has several Rowan Trees in the garden, partly due to several generations of us having Rowan Berry Fights every autumn, and that has certainly been a happy family home through no less than seven decades. A staff of Rowan is said to protect the traveller from getting lost too.
Rowan berry protection charms were once very commonly made and placed either in or outside the home to protect those who dwell there. Over the years, several have disappeared amongst the Jasmine around my front porch, but flashes or red peek through every now and then! I make them most years, carefully and respectfully asking the tree for their wood and berries before I take them. They vary in design, but usually incorporate a cross of Rowan twigs, and a circle of berries on red cotton in one form or other. This month we decided to make some more at our Moon Circle, no doubt weaving in an additional collective protection, brought by the power of women sat in a circle drinking tea and eating cake!
It seems such a satisfying short ritual to make them, one that our ancestors must have done for many years. I've hung mine with the collection in the porch and also made a simple string of berries to hang above the back door too, and of course you can't fail to notice the tiny pentagram on every single berry, adding protection, magic and mystery to each charm.
Have A Blessed Week x x
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